I'm going to do it in one post...

I went a little picture crazy today. Remember those fields that I didn't know what they were? Well, imagine my excitement when I saw little yellow blooms today :) WOOO HOOOOO

I want my dad to go in halves with me on that house in the background. This is my ideal front yard and probably his too!


I had no idea these were tomatoes. There are thousands and thousands and thousands of plants.

I'm sorry, but agriculture excites me :) I want to go pick these myself when they are ripe. I love the smell of tomato plants. I could camp out in the middle of these things for the summer and be a happy camper!

These, I still don't know what they are yet. They are across the street from the strawberries. The next pic is a zoom of this tree.



Wine anyone? Vineyards abound here too. I didn't see any little grapes yet, but I'm sure I'll get pics when there are :)

I have one more place to go that I want a picture, but I'll save that one for later.

Ms. Kim's Survivors

You probably can't read the writing on this. It's in pencil, and it says Ms. Kim's 4th Grade Survivors.

Seven years ago, I got a call at about the time school would be letting out. He-man was just across the street at the school and would be walking in any minute, or so I thought. The caller asked me to come pick He-man up because there had been "an accident." All I knew was that a car had hit the building. Well, his classroom was at the very back corner of the school, so I was a little confused.

Fast forward, today the woman who did this is free. Her family was wealthy, but she is mentally ill. This woman, a teacher's aid, decided she needed to end her life. How did she attempt it? She went to the middle of the field behind the school with her car. People did see her going forward and then back, but it didn't register. She then held the accelerator down and slammed into my baby boy's classroom. I can't imagine the sound or the shock that must have been felt by those 21 4th graders and their teacher. The teacher was thrown by the blast. Miraculously, nobody was seriously hurt.

A steel cross beam was built at a diagonal in the wall. A few inches over, and she would have cleared it. I don't like to think about that though.

This brick was part of the group therapy that they did with those kids. I came across that brick in my cleaning today. It's a reminder that you should always hug your kids and tell them you love them. You never know what a day will bring!

Non agreement between my brain and my body

In a normal situation where it's me against the world, I really could care less what anybody thinks. I am me. I don't try to be anybody different.

Now, if I have to stand up or talk in front of a group, my insides go to work immediately. My stomach goes crazy, I start sweating, and my face catches fire!

I have been attending sales meetings and trainings at the real estate office I am going to work for once I get done getting my license. Again, I do not have my license yet. So I have to go to this office where everybody else has their license and knows what they are doing. Normally, the Tuesday meetings are at the smaller office. Yesterday, it was at the big office. I didn't know who to expect there or what to expect there.

I had no issues whatsoever, until I was about to walk in. I noticed that there were entrances in the back of this building too. It's a BEAUTIFUL little Victorian home that is used for an office. (There is a mexican restaurant right across the street that we have frequented, and I always said I wanted to see inside that Victorian house!)

So here I am, not knowing which door was the one to go thru. I ended up going in the back door. I didn't think I was nervous. I went in, saw some familiar faces, said hello, and found my spot in the room. I sat down and my face felt like it was burning OFF! So then I was embarrassed, thinking that everybody could see my red face and know the turmoil going on in my body!

Lo and behold, the meeting was starting and guess what?! The broker stood BEHIND me for the meeting. I couldn't move to another spot without making a fuss, and I couldn't turn around as there was no room. So I endured it. She's all of about 5, 2 probably, standing behind me talking. So for an hour, I felt like everybody in the room was staring at me.

Today? I feel a whole lot different than I did yesterday. Big deal, right? I just don't know how to get my brain and my body to agree. I really am determined to get over this kind of anxiety. It's held me prisoner for way too long. I do want to be free from it.

Mexican Hannakuh?

Is there such a thing? Can we celebrate Uno de Mayo thru Cinco de Mayo? I can handle a week of Mexican food :)

Why didn't someone tell me?

My son, my ginormous baby boy, the one who would sit on the couch for a full week if he had an IV drip and didn't need nourishment, today, without being prompted, said he was going to wash his car

So disappointed

The hummingbird nest that I was watching, the eggs are not viable. They should have hatched last week, and she finally abandoned them at the beginning of this week. I am so bummed. So I was looking at videos of past hummingbirds at that site. I am putting a funny one on here of a chick almost falling out of the nest. It looks like the bird puts itself in rewind to get back into the nest.

The videos don't really do a hummingbird nest justice. They are EXTREMELY small. I don't know how 2 chicks and a momma bird fit in there! If you enjoy this video, there are a few others by this same person. There's a funny one called a day in the life that has 7 hours compressed into 7 minutes. It's pretty cute!

I don't even know what to say about this